i hope he someday reads this...

Yerr Perfect Xx: hey hun
VelocityAddict09: hi
Yerr Perfect Xx: how u doin 2day?
VelocityAddict09: good i guess
Yerr Perfect Xx: really?
VelocityAddict09: i guess
Yerr Perfect Xx: well then, i guess, thats good
Yerr Perfect Xx: so uh whatd u do 2day?
VelocityAddict09: worked for my gma
Yerr Perfect Xx: did u hurt urself?
Yerr Perfect Xx: i hope not...
VelocityAddict09: no
Yerr Perfect Xx: thats good
Yerr Perfect Xx: well... whattya doin right now?
VelocityAddict09: listenin to ridin
Yerr Perfect Xx: ohh
Yerr Perfect Xx: is ur game @ bp 2maro?
VelocityAddict09: ya
VelocityAddict09: r u going?
Yerr Perfect Xx: of course
Yerr Perfect Xx: unless, you dont want me to
Yerr Perfect Xx: ?
VelocityAddict09: idk
VelocityAddict09: kinda, kinda not
Yerr Perfect Xx: well its up 2 u, i wont go if u dont want me 12
Yerr Perfect Xx: 2&
Yerr Perfect Xx: 2*
VelocityAddict09: do u really really want to?
Yerr Perfect Xx: it doesnt matter what i want...
VelocityAddict09: um
VelocityAddict09: no
Yerr Perfect Xx: no as in dont go?
VelocityAddict09: yea
Yerr Perfect Xx: well, if thats what you want, then i wont
VelocityAddict09: k
VelocityAddict09: thanx
Yerr Perfect Xx: just wondering though, y not?
VelocityAddict09: idk
Yerr Perfect Xx: well thats fine i guess
VelocityAddict09: good
Yerr Perfect Xx: so what about homecoming then?
VelocityAddict09: what about it?
Yerr Perfect Xx: still want me 2 go w/ u?
VelocityAddict09: do u want to go with?
Yerr Perfect Xx: i want what you want
VelocityAddict09: well i dont care either way
Yerr Perfect Xx: which do u prefer?
VelocityAddict09: i dont prefer anything
Yerr Perfect Xx: well i dont wanna if ur gonna feel all akward and stuff...
Yerr Perfect Xx: its ur homecoming, i dont wanna ruin it 4 u
VelocityAddict09: i'll think about it
Yerr Perfect Xx: okay
Yerr Perfect Xx: well uhm u let me know whenever u decide
VelocityAddict09: i will
Yerr Perfect Xx: i gotta kno by like wednesday though
VelocityAddict09: ok
Yerr Perfect Xx: you do know this is killing me right....?

Auto response from VelocityAddict09: bbl

VelocityAddict09: um, sry?
Yerr Perfect Xx: ugh y do u have 2 b like that?
VelocityAddict09: like what?
Yerr Perfect Xx: its not making it any easier on me and i know its not on you either
Yerr Perfect Xx: like the "i hate you leave me alone, move on" additude
Yerr Perfect Xx: attitude*
VelocityAddict09: thats not my attitude
Yerr Perfect Xx: its coming across as that
VelocityAddict09: sry
Yerr Perfect Xx: well.. what is you attitude?
Yerr Perfect Xx: your*
VelocityAddict09: im trying to not feel as vad as i usually do and im really tired
VelocityAddict09: so any attitude u get from me isnt true
VelocityAddict09: bad*
Yerr Perfect Xx: so do u wanna try 2 make this work, or do u want me 2 let go?
VelocityAddict09: i think i'd be best if u try to let it go
VelocityAddict09: cuz thats all i've been thinking about all day
Yerr Perfect Xx: whats all youve been thinking about all day?
VelocityAddict09: what we talked about last night
Yerr Perfect Xx: well what about it?
VelocityAddict09: i've been trying to learn to let go
VelocityAddict09: and its hard
Yerr Perfect Xx: so apparantly we dont feel the same way about eachother then
VelocityAddict09: i'll let u think that
Yerr Perfect Xx: well its true cuz im over here 1/2 dying and you're over there already moving on
VelocityAddict09: well trying
Yerr Perfect Xx: i just cant understand y u dont want 2 try 2 make this work...
Yerr Perfect Xx: but i guess i thought we were more than we actually are...
VelocityAddict09: i've been trying to make it work for a while
VelocityAddict09: i guess i just cant
Yerr Perfect Xx: well what is it that you want from me that im not giving you
VelocityAddict09: trust, freedom, space, privacy
VelocityAddict09: everything i need
Yerr Perfect Xx: so then y'd u stay with me this long...
VelocityAddict09: cuz i gave me that for a long time
VelocityAddict09: until like a month ago
VelocityAddict09: and then i tried to make it work
VelocityAddict09: and we started arguing
VelocityAddict09: and it didnt work
Yerr Perfect Xx: ur not giving it enough time
Yerr Perfect Xx: if i gave u all those things b4 i can do it again
VelocityAddict09: i asked for it
Yerr Perfect Xx: listen,
VelocityAddict09: and nothing really happend
Yerr Perfect Xx: its really really really really really hard 4 me what we arent at the same school and i sit at school all day worring about other girls checking you out or sneaking behind my back and its just taking me awhile 2 get used 2
Yerr Perfect Xx: but i know that you know that i can give you the world
Yerr Perfect Xx: we're just not on the same page and we need to work thru things
VelocityAddict09: i've been feeling like this for a while and i really dont like that ur trying to convince me otherwise
Yerr Perfect Xx: well im sorry but i love you with every ounce of my being and im willing to do anything and everything to make this work
VelocityAddict09: well i love you too but the bad things greatly out weigh the good and i dont think thats a good thing
Yerr Perfect Xx: well i understand that and i agree with you but if we talk this thru i can loosen up a bit and let you have your space and the other things u need
VelocityAddict09: i know u
Yerr Perfect Xx: it will help when fball is over too cuz we can spend a lot more time together
VelocityAddict09: u cant loosen up
VelocityAddict09: u cant go without talkin to me for a week
VelocityAddict09: i can
Yerr Perfect Xx: yes i can i prefer not to
VelocityAddict09: u cant let me go to a party that ur not at
VelocityAddict09: u need to have it if u want it
Yerr Perfect Xx: no
Yerr Perfect Xx: thats not true
VelocityAddict09: u get more and give less
Yerr Perfect Xx: i can let u go 2 a party im not at
Yerr Perfect Xx: i just want to know about it
Yerr Perfect Xx: and id rather not find out from other sources
VelocityAddict09: and i dont like being acussed of lieing when i didnt lie
Yerr Perfect Xx: okay, im sorry
Yerr Perfect Xx: if i accused you of lying and you truly didnt lie
Yerr Perfect Xx: im sorry
Yerr Perfect Xx: im really really sorry
Yerr Perfect Xx: the whole thing was just really upsetting to me and i had a lot of emotions coming out all at once
VelocityAddict09: well i dont think its gonna work out
VelocityAddict09: sry
VelocityAddict09: i dont think i'll b comfortable at homecoming either
VelocityAddict09: so u can go with cassie and sparrow i guess
VelocityAddict09: um
VelocityAddict09: u can say something when u process that
Yerr Perfect Xx: well im really sorry for whatever it is ive done to you
Yerr Perfect Xx: and im not going with cassie and sparrow but thanks for the offer
Yerr Perfect Xx: u can call me if u want 2 talk
Yerr Perfect Xx: and i really do hope you do re-read some of the things u said cuz u r being a complete jerk